i felt soooooooooooooooo dumb!
i think i was at my dumbest today....
such an irony just aft i blogged abt mat... -.-
ok... facts r:
someone conned me into lending my phone n its gone...
was at e police station for 2 hrs :S
(sry mat, dicky n hh! n THX alot! :D)
went to zq's place to celebrate her bd :D :D
mat, sw n wj baked cake for her...
hahahahahahahaha
not bad la....
e cream sucked... (mat, i'm just being honest )
but overall its acceptable :D
i realised tt when u stop caring, nth matters anymore...
new found freedom here i come! :D
cant wait for tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!
NIGHTS! :D:D:D
u know what was gng thru my head when i'm leaning over e railings of e viewing tower?
i was wondering what would happen if i fall...
fear creeps in...
but then i tot...
if i fall, i would wanna close my eyes n feel e wind rushing pass me...
e adrenaline rush thru me...
so tt if i die, at least i died peacefully...
n if i dun... at least i enjoyed e ride :)
i officially think tt mathew is dumb....
i swear...
he actually thinks tt fb has face detector or smth so e pictures he uploaded will automatically be tagged -.-
he thinks tt mice n mouse r diff...
seal n sea lion r e same just like maize n corn
what else needa be said???
zi qin asked a v v v v gd qns today....
guys woo girls for shuang de arh?
but she asked e wrg person... haohan -.-
like of all ppl...
hahax....
but its not like she can ask mat or dicky either....
dun exactly hv much experience ya?
haha
so anw.... went ubin...
just e 5 of us...
didnt manage to reach flor's grandma's temple since SOME PPL got e route wrg -.-
rented bike n biked all e way...
it was soooooooooooooo relaxing!!!!!!!
so fun n calm....
:D
loved e ride esp when it's down hill!
oh man! e breeze! e scenery!
<3 :D :D :D
thr's a part of e journey, a scene etched in my mind....
it was when i looked up while riding n see 2 birds (i tot they were sea gulls but mat said they didnt look like e pokemon de... go figure~) flying high in e sky...
its e kinda scene tt ppl seem to only see in movies...
but its not...
we just dun notice them :)
it was a v v v v awesome exp!!!!
tiring tho...
but AWESOME!
:D gng again i hope w more ppl like flor n jerry(bing yang gave himself tt name :)) will go!
hopefully they can stand e long journey :D
i learned a few things today!
mudskippers rly SKIP! tho most of e time they r wriggling :)
to hv an easier biking exp, turn to e highest gear n put ur seat higher even if u r quite short :D
hope u guys will hv an enjoyable trip to ubin too :D
never knew i needed by ne-yo :)
For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing (Oh yeah)
For the ending of my first begin
(Ooh yeah yeah)(Ooh yeah yeah)
And for the rare and unexpected friend
(Ooh yeah yeah)(Ooh yeah yeah)
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again (Oh Oh)
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always
My accidental happily (Ever After Oh Oh Oh)
The way you slime and how you comfort me (With your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter (Oh Oh)
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (Oh)
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (That I needed)
So now it's so clear I need you here always
Who'd knew that I'd be here (Who'd knew that I'd be here oh oh)
So unexpectedly (So unexpectedly oh oh)
Undeniably happy (Hey)
Said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)
Boy you're the..
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (Said I needed oh oh)
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (Needed oh)
So now it's so clear I need you here always
Baby, baby
Now it's so clear I need you here always
watched princess n e frog w huiming today:)
not a bad show but not one tt i'll strongly recommend ppl to watch :)
chipmunks n chipettes better...
THEODORE!!!!
huiming intro me a book today:
Why Men Love Bitches
skimmed thru half of it b4 i got rly bored...
it's basically e theory : men love what they cant get...
n it encourages girls to play hard to get...
girls r categorised into nice girls n bitches...
bitches in this book arent conventional bitches tt r slutty n gossipy...
they r just girls who simply love themselves more than anything else...
perhaps in a nicer way, girls who know how to cherish n respect themselves so tt guys will do e same...
but the girls they describe in e book r manipulative, insensitive n inconsiderate..
i admit i;m a nice girl... by e book standards...
but i dun see guys holding me on a leash like a dog n me barking at their command...
if i hv to play a game to get e guy i want, i rather not hv him...
i'm like this... take it or leave it...
if we change to become "bitchy" so tt guys will like us, doesnt tt boost their ego even more???
anw, i feel tt not all e guys r like tt...
n e one i want is certainly not like tt...
there always exceptions in life...
n when i'm an exception for him n vice versa, then i've found e right one...
friends ought to make u v comfortable...
no pressure at all....
even make u momentarily forget abt ur probs n totally let ur hair down :)
when u go out w them, u get to say everything tt comes to ur mind...
random or not, funny or not... ANYTHING!
they may not think tt's impt... but they'll listen anw...
u'll know coz they'll look at u ernestly waiting for e climax... n when it doesn't come, they'll go "oh...." n u all will start laughing... hahax...
n u dun hv to think b4 u speak... coz u dun hv to worry if they'll take ur msg e wrg way...
u wun hide secrets from them.... at least not intentionally since u can rly trust them :)
they wun judge u...
wun think tt u r v wild just coz u go clubbing
wun think tt u r too easy just coz they see u talking abt alot of guys
wun think tt u r fake just coz u wear makeup
wun think tt u betrayed them or find u hypocritical just coz u speak to ppl they dun like...
friends r those who dun judge but join in n hv fun :D
now e qns is, how to lose those "friends" so tt u hv more time n finances for real, true friends...
anw, i'm feel v fortunate to hv those REAL friends... n appreciate them alot :D
thk u ALOT ALOT!!! :D <3
ALVIN N E CHIPMUNKS R OH-SO-CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!awesome cuteness!!!!! <3i love theodore BEST! not only coz jesse macCartney did his voice, but he is soooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE!!!!!!fat fat one... n UBER innocent!hahahax....of coz, e chipettes were fantastic too...like e moment when they met each o/r e best!so cute la!n v v v v v v funny...hahahx...realised tt most of e time i go out w tel we're usually watching movies...she wanna watch princess n e frog too....but i'm watching w ming on mon :)i hope still hv e movie!!!!went shopping today too!!! cotton on offer :D :D :Di shld start saving up....gd night! :D
seeing his name still makes my heart skip a beat...
guess i need more time :)
i'm too flawed....
too calculating...
too judgemental...
too sensitive...
tries too hard to please o/r ppl...
end up getting everyone so fed up w me...
if it was coz i try too hard n end up disappointing more ppl,
i hope u all will take comfort in knowing tt i was disappointed by alot of ppl i rly trusted n relied on too...
i was sry for making u all upset...
but i nvr regret what i did...
coz i didnt let myself down...
i know tt whatever i did was e best out of e situation...
if e person on e receiving end did not appreciate my efforts,
i could still pat myself on my shoulder n said "i tried my best :)"
of coz, ppl will read this post n find me a hypocrite...
but i dun care abt them...
coz friends who rly know me wun judge me n say tt...
those who judge me r not my friends...
n those ppl r not worth me caring abt their opinion :)
n to those who judge me but still act like my friend...
its my bu xing to know u.... pls get lost:D
i also want a"jacob"....
w/o e emotional baggage tho....
i duno how to say tt i rly need friends arnd me...
ppl who dun give me stress coz they care abt me too much n tt's y i cant bear to hurt them...
i rly hv awesome friends n i cant risk anything to lose tt....
but once they hv feelings for me tt r more then friends...
things will fall apart...
i'm willing to stop our friendship as long as u all r happy....
so pls...
be happy...
even friends cant be used as substitudes....
Rainbowlin
